The unnamed poem

This is the day when I began to realize my shortcomings

I always thought that I could push myself to the limitations of my ability

But I was wrong in that kind of belief since I have my limitations too

I just don’t know when to give up on this

It’s been such a little while since we became friends

And then we became closer than we expected

Until such time came when we began to realize that both of us felt something

And that is to fall in love in a very wrong time

This day is suppose to be a happy day since it is the day we commemorate love

But I am here spending time with myself in my room alone

It’s been raining since yesterday and I tried to let the time slip

But I just can’t deny the fact that something deep inside me is lacking

Last night was a terrible night for both of us

I just don’t know if it was the will of the Supreme Being or it was a coincidence

I just don’t know if I will be happy or not

All I felt that time was fear and I always think about you every moment

When we met just this morning, I hold on to my tears

I controlled my emotions when I saw your eyes

I saw loneliness; fear, and a bit of regret

Yet there is still hope that is still struggling to keep itself alive

I just don’t know where my feelings for you will be going to bring me

I just don’t know when will I surrender

I just don’t know what to do as of the moment

With all honesty, I am now on the brink of giving you up

I really pitied you this morning

Your eyes seemed to tell many things yet we just opted to be silent

I wanted to speak to you yet I controlled myself

For silence that time was the best and the kindest thing to do this time

I tried to sleep earlier just to do away with what I feel

But I just can’t close my eyes

No matter what I do this time, I am still restless

For the truth is, you are always inside my lonely mind

I just don’t know why I fell in love with you

I know there are girls who are much better than you

No matter how I tried to take this feeling away

I just can’t… I just can’t because I do love you

It’s hard for me and I just don’t know if I can survive this situation

I am now free at last but you are not

I have been telling you several times that I will wait

Good Lord! Please help me out with this for I just don’t know what to do

True love can be tested in letting someone go

Things began to get more complicated than before

This place is too small for the two of us

I just don’t know if there is still chance for me to have you

And now that we are on the brink of closing the doors

I just cannot accept the fact that things are turning against us

But I know this is the best way for now

Saying goodbye though it really hurts from the inside

As you go back to your former life

Let me say sorry for the nuisance

Allow me to say thank you for the moments we shared

And let me say I wish you all the best in this world

I just don’t know how to give up… really

In time, I know… I will be winning you back

But I need to entrust everything to the One who has the will

I will just close my eyes this time and hope

If ever I will be given another chance to have you

I know that will never be coincidental anymore

I know this will going to kill my heart out

But we need to separate ways this time… for the good of us

I wish I could still see your face in time

I wish I could spend time with you just like what we always do

I wish… I just simply wish that you would be free

For I really wish that I could win your heart

I know this will be very difficult

I know this will going to hurt both you and I

And I know that anything will happen after this

Whew! My heart is already crying as I am writing this poem for you

I want you to know that I do love you

I do love you because my world becomes alive when you arrived

But things are not yet turning towards our favor

And so allow me to say the last things on my mind before I will run out of words

I really appreciate you for your goodness

I thank you for the love you gave to me

No matter what will happen to us, always remember that I do love you

But we need to accept the fact that it is not yet the right time

Is it really not right for us?

Who then defines when is the right time?

Who then has the right to say that it is right?

Al I know is it is not yet fitting for us

I love you… for you are important to me

I need you because I love you

But then I want you to grow and be happy

And so, even though this will be painful to me… I need to say good-bye to you

As I end this short poem, I want you to know how important you are to me

Despite the complicatedness of the situation, I still do love you; and I know I will

But letting us go for the moment will allow us to grow. And so let me say good-bye to you

I want you to know that wherever I go, you will always remain in my heart… until we meet again

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the veracity of interiority

The veracity of interiority

I woke up one early morning and rose immediately from bed

Wanting to grab this very rare opportunity of feeling the kiss of the wind

I washed myself just like what I always do

And went out to start my ordinary walk in life

As I continue my walk, I began to ponder upon some important events

I just realized how fortunate I am to meet a person like you

Until now, I can’t figure out the exact reason why we met

But one thing I can be sure of is I am feeling an unexplained eudaimonia because of you

At first, I did not expect this closeness of ours to come

It was such a perplexing instance to get closer to you

It was even paradoxical since I traveled so far just to search for you

And yet, the one I have been looking for is just here where I started to step unto

It’s quite painful upon knowing that not everything will happen in your favor

That is such a reality that I have been trying to accept

It’s quite weird thinking that we are like birds in prison

For both of us are already been attached

Whew! What a very mysterious life there is in this world

It is indeed true that things are not what they seem

It’s contradictory to feel happiness where in fact we are lonely

But that is the way it goes sometimes

I am starting to reflect as to why I did not met you before

I just can’t organize my thoughts whenever I think about this

Falling for someone where in fact you’ve already been attached to someone else

It is indeed more rational sometimes to be irrational

I just cannot contain myself anymore

For I am living in this world full of prejudice and lies

And on the other hand, a world full of hope and love

For having you found makes my life complicated yet a life of fulfillment

I offer this to you for this wonderful day

I am very grateful still because if not this day, I might no be able to see you

But here we are, having met at last

Despite the difficulties, I am still happy

I am still hopeful that I will win you someday

It might not be today, not tomorrow, it might be someday

Nobody knows for we don’t have any control of tomorrow

But we can defy time and space if we want to

I am saying this to you because I cannot simply wear a mask

I know basically the traps of the situation

It might endanger both you and I

But I am very sure that one can ever question feelings

When can a huddle of wrong be right?

And when can a cluster of right be wrong?

When can a horde of truth be filled with lies?

And when can a bunch of lies be filled with truths?

I know you know what my actions speaks

And I am feeling the same way with yours

I just want to let you know that if it’s necessary to wait

Then I will wait even if it will take me light years

Love doesn’t know any time and space

For it is beyond them

It doesn’t know any right or wrong

For it is simply an expression of what is true

I offer you this poem

As my gift to you for this very special day

A day when a beautiful creation came into this world

In order to be appreciated by an ordinary being like me

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